Got friends? I mean - Do you have friends? More or less the answer should contain at least one "yes". And then I ask you: From all these so called friends how many managed to be in every single possible way exactly how you imagined they'd be? Answer: None. Sooner or later they all show us something we do not need to know or don't think imaginable about this person, but yet, they do. And then what happens? Despair, regrets, debates, fear, laughter, break-ups? No?! Nothing?!
Why? - Maybe because sooner or later they all show us exactly the same thing. Maybe we already, somehow, know in our inner thoughts that this is to happen. Maybe. Or maybe our coward existence does not allow us to take action. Or maybe sometimes we think that actually we are not the "normal" ones in this society. And so we cannot issue requests of how others should behave towards us. Hm. Sad? Do we actually choose our friends or are they a results of our actions? And then we can ask again: Who is the normal one? Someone told me that normality is what people in general commonly accept. So, as everything that surrounds us, normality changes as we go by. Meaning that something accepted as normal yesterday, today can be totally the opposite. So then I ask you again: Do you have friends?



USD, EURO, GBP, YEN! Anybody? Crisis! Crisis? Happy. Sad. Mad. Suicidal. Alive. Younger. Charming. Playboy. Homeless. Dead. Divorce. House. Food. Children. Calm. Peaceful. Estranged. Ill. Car. Presents. Holiday. Run. Murder. High. King. Travel. House. Theft. "Friends". Abandon. Rights. Politics. Gain. Elections. Genocide. Dirt. Shopping. Credit. Alcohol. War. Bank. Trial. Despair. Laughter. ................................. USD, EURO, GBP, YEN!...................................... Why? Anybody?


Interesting way of saying I love you

I met someone. Not long ago. That means I was 31, so I had an ideea of what love should be. And this person - much older than me, probably the same spirit, told me that: If you really love someone, really, really love him, than you should let him do whatever he feels like. Because of this immense feeling you should let him do whatever he wants and you should love him more for every action he takes. And all my thoughts and beliefs changed.
I agreed at some point to this ideea and now everything has a different shape. A milder one. Strange of me because I always wanted in my mind a certain controll. Not anymore. This cannot coexist with love.

Love beats the demon...........

I started believing this when I was 19. Now I'm 32 and this still rules my beliefs. Helped a lot finding out this as a teenager. Rough was I in my actions, ruthless in my knowledge and raw in my mind. My castle of cards went down in a split second when I realized that our primary needs of recognition don't matter anymore and our wills and ideas of ego centrism vanish in front of a simple idea of giving and sharing. Of hoping and earning, of seeking and letting go, of being human. As if the whole base of humanity is built on true love.
Do not worry, the other side kept reapearing. And the cicle reapeated itself. And anyhow you take it and/or accept it, it will always be around. Claiming his rights as if it represented another base of humanity. And sometimes you end up saying that it really is. You act as if it were the base of your belief and, in the end, you end up thinking of the same part.
Shameless and cowardness. Two qualities never accepted, but always present. Surroundinng us, giving shape for our closest friends. Unfortunate, but real. Hard, but somehow acceptable. Making us ask how and why.
And then "why?" seems the hardest question.